everybody have their own problems
whether its family, relationship or friends
i find it hard to cope wif family!
and for relationship, i just need a bf who cares for me
why some ppl have a loving family but why not me?
my grandma is in the hospital and i cant even do anything
wat is this NGYILING?
i just need a warm family when i reach home,
and they will ask me how was today?
wat i lack is the love in the family.
why didnt i follow my sister and let my aunt raise me??
my family is broken when we are young,
my mum left us when i'm young,
and my sister is just less than 1 year old.
my grandma left my sister wif my aunt as she cant cope.
so my grandma took care of me all these 20 years!
i love my grandma so much!
and wat is father to me?
my father doesnt even care for me.
doesnt even bother to look for me when i'm not at home.
if i nv cal him, and ask for pocket money.
i tink he will nv even cal me!
when i cal him, he scold me saying why i nv go home.
saying that i nv go sch!
but i did go to sch okay!
i have my presentation done and went home den went out OKAY!
i dun even feel like going home as this house feels so empty.
without me is nothing.
they wont feel anything is wrong without me.
I DUN NEED THIS HOUSE AT ALL!
when i go back, i only can use com.
nobody cares bout wat i do.
i can only smile and laugh wat ever i do.
even if i'm sad. =)
i'm going to keep my feeling deep down the bottom of my heart!
what i need is fatherly love!
i want him to care bout me.
i feel so empty in this house.
i wonder what am i going to do without my grandma!
